14 minutes ago
After some time we talked again.
It's 3 in the morning when I woke up and you were up too. I know you should be at a work shift but I don't know why you're home.
I had a bad dream and you've always brought comfort so I decided to stay awake with you.
It's been a while since you started treating me like I don't exist, like we never shared something special, like we didn't stay up late because both are too clingy to say good night, like you weren't once the reason I believed in love and butterflies and happy tears.
We were talking when suddenly you asked me why I never asked why you shut me out. I didn't answer, maybe because I didn't want to feel that it's that easy getting rid of me, that I don't mean a thing, that I am not important.
But you told me the truth, you told me that you had to shut me out because you love me so much that you want me to give up my dreams and my friends and my family and my life just so I can be with you, and yes, that it's selfish. And so, instead you shut me out without giving me a reason so that I'd hate you, and everything would be easier. You needed me to hate you so you won't.
Sadly, it didn't work that way. Honestly, I got really upset and disappointed. But I didn't hate you, I don't hate you.
I can't hate you just because you love me.
Now tell me, how do you keep me, and how do I keep you, without breaking each other too?
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