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I AM... Looking within. For so long, I needed another to validate my worth, my value. Whether it was through my job, desperately wanting my boss’s praise, or that of my boyfriend, I turned to them to feel strong, to feel valued or loved, to confirm I made a right decision. On the mat, it would be an approving look or comment from my teacher. So rarely did I ever turn to myself in those moments; so rarely did I look within.
Time and again over the last decade, I heard that precise catechism, “look within…all you need is there,” and each time I wanted to revolt. Against whom or what, I had no idea – but at the very least, against the mere concept of ‘looking within.’ Somehow, that catechism has seeped in and I now realize the sustenance provided by others is fleeting and that which give myself – well that is far longer lasting and far more nourishing. As Rumi said, "there is a life force within your soul, seek that life. There is a gem in the mountain of your body, seek that mine. O traveler, if you are in search of that, don’t look outside, look inside yourself and seek that.” I Am... Seeking that. What are you, today? Would love to hear! xx - Rachel #iamlivingyoga